On August 15, my son turned 23. He looks so grown up. Ok, he still talks, dresses and acts like a college student, but what’s wrong with that? Currently, he’s a second year senior … great grades, but unsure of direction. He’s had trouble picking a major.
This is the child that changed my life. I always wanted children. Always. But my ex was immature. Marriage was a long list of "settling for less.” Then, there was an oops and I was pregnant.
Control freaks raised me. Unplanned = bad to my mother. My son taught me that unplanned can be wonderful. In the beginning, I was scared. Neither my ex nor my mother were the encouraging types. Having a child when your marriage is a mess ... well, it certainly won't save it. A thoughtful person would wonder if they were doing the right thing.
I like choosing what happens to me. But this unplanned child was the best thing that has ever happened in my life. I love my daughter, too. But if Eric hadn't happened, she wouldn't have either. I suspect he will never understand how much I love him. That's OK. Parenting is more about giving than getting. If you can't deal with that, you shouldn't do it.
I am not a perfect mother. Who is? But I gave it my best and I feel very lucky.
Happy Birthday, Eric!
This is the child that changed my life. I always wanted children. Always. But my ex was immature. Marriage was a long list of "settling for less.” Then, there was an oops and I was pregnant.
Control freaks raised me. Unplanned = bad to my mother. My son taught me that unplanned can be wonderful. In the beginning, I was scared. Neither my ex nor my mother were the encouraging types. Having a child when your marriage is a mess ... well, it certainly won't save it. A thoughtful person would wonder if they were doing the right thing.
I like choosing what happens to me. But this unplanned child was the best thing that has ever happened in my life. I love my daughter, too. But if Eric hadn't happened, she wouldn't have either. I suspect he will never understand how much I love him. That's OK. Parenting is more about giving than getting. If you can't deal with that, you shouldn't do it.
I am not a perfect mother. Who is? But I gave it my best and I feel very lucky.
Happy Birthday, Eric!
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