Body image. You have a mental picture of how you look, but how often is it accurate? Before I lost weight, I knew I was heavy. Mirrors are everywhere. I knew I’d look better minus the fat. I knew … or thought I did. But the first time I actually stepped on the scales and saw how bad it was … yeah, that I didn’t know.
Now I am 72 pound lighter. Compared to January of 2008, I look A LOT better, but I’m still 53 pound over the very highest healthy weigh for my height. In other words, pretty damn chubby.
Daylight hasn’t seen this much of my skin in decades. That’s not an exaggeration. The last time I was a size 14, was before my daughter was born. She’s 20.
I used to wear skirts down to my mid to lower calf. I ALWAYS hid my upper arms. I wore loose clothes, because I didn’t want to show my rolls. (Icky, right?)
Now I’m coming out, but is it too much? I have no idea. I sit at my desk and look down at my thighs. Again, pretty damn chubby. Knee length skirts don’t stay knee length when you sit. The whole thing is a work in progress.
This is not the Biggest Loser. I am not trying to diet fast. I am trying to change … to not just loose the fat, but to get in habits that will keep it off. The best-case scenario is I have another year to goal. I have time to figure it all out.
Now I am 72 pound lighter. Compared to January of 2008, I look A LOT better, but I’m still 53 pound over the very highest healthy weigh for my height. In other words, pretty damn chubby.
Daylight hasn’t seen this much of my skin in decades. That’s not an exaggeration. The last time I was a size 14, was before my daughter was born. She’s 20.
I used to wear skirts down to my mid to lower calf. I ALWAYS hid my upper arms. I wore loose clothes, because I didn’t want to show my rolls. (Icky, right?)
Now I’m coming out, but is it too much? I have no idea. I sit at my desk and look down at my thighs. Again, pretty damn chubby. Knee length skirts don’t stay knee length when you sit. The whole thing is a work in progress.
This is not the Biggest Loser. I am not trying to diet fast. I am trying to change … to not just loose the fat, but to get in habits that will keep it off. The best-case scenario is I have another year to goal. I have time to figure it all out.
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